its my first post isn't it.. or is it? forgot. anyway, today, people keep putting me down. first, mrs wong. i forgot what she said, but this ,"Beatrice is a leader, she is responsible!! YOU ARE NOT A LEADER!!" she keeps saying that, whatever im a great disappointment. and then the cheerleading group. maybe im sensitive. they didn't say it in an offensive manner but they said "you don't know how to do any stunts, you should'nt be house captain. I should!!" is dam hurting. life hasn't gone so well for me recently. mr sze toh!! he keeps saying i wrote the F word on the window!! I said i didn't!! he said dont waste my time, there's a camera here i can check. i said i really didn't!! he stared at me. whenever something goes wrong, he stares at me!! WHY?? am i the cunning one? am i the worse one? why me and not all of us?!?! why me!!
people keep saying i've gone to the bad side, i've changed. i know i have. but i just don't know how i have. i know i've really changed. its partly cause i feel dam lonely. really lonely. it's so dam hurting, im numb. i dont feel anything. i dont know what to feel. i can't feel. im numb. i hate this.
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